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جهان درون

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Roozha migozarand va hanooz az in do panjereye koochak dar hale nezareye tasavire atrafam. Rooz be rooz in hesse … kohne tar mishavad, amma engar harche zaman migozarad, in has ham pokhte tar va nab tar mishavad. Shayad daram tasavvor mikonam, shayad daram khialbafi mikonam, shayad khodam ra gool mizanam, shayad anche ra ke bayad bebinam nemibinam,shayad…. . falsafe ha va aghayede ziadi dar haghighathaye  in zendegi ezhar shodeand, haghayeghe gharardadi, vagheiathaye talkh o shirin, farzie haye khiali. Amma bar faraze hameye an shayad ha mi istam va migooyam ke in hes,agar  tasavor ast zibast, agar khialbafist zibast, agar khodfaribist zibast va agar nadide gereftane didani hast, baz ham zibast, va hamin ke zibast, kafist.

 doosti hayi k eta be hal dashte am va hes haye nashi az anha mesle rah raftan bar zamine jesm boodeand. Amma shena kardan dar oghianoose in zamin koja va rah raftane bar sahele an koja! Parvaz dar asemane in samin koja va davidan dar sathe an koja! Do bal mmikhaham, do bal. in hes , hatta fekr kardane be an, baraye chand lahze ham ke shode dobal be man midahad. Parvaz, ari parvaz.

Eshgh yani che,hamishe be in fekr mikonam ke echgh yani che. Shayad yek manie gharardadist baraye zendegi.ensan, eykash ke be jaye sakhtane inhame manaye gharar dadi va gheyre shaffaf, zamani ra ba hesse in mana separi mikardam,amma zendegi hanooz edame darad. Va baz ham forsat daram ke baz be haman rah ha beravam va ya inke inbar parvaz ra bargozinam. In eshghhaye khande dar va mozhek dar atrafam, dar zendegiam,chegoone bar anha cheshmbandam? Chegoone khod ra az anha raha sazam? In badane siri napazir az eshgh haye insane, chegoone az in badan joda gardam? Chegoone panjereye negaham ra az in do panjereye koochak, be panjereyeE bozorgtar tabdil namayam? In eshgh kea z in do panjere mibinam, gah va bigah delam ra be ham mizanad. . .  in hes dar hamin gahhaye talayie omram ast ke borooz mikonad. In hes, ari in hes . . .

Zibayi chist? Tajassome shakhsie an chist? Faregh az gharardad ha va mod ha cheghadr mitavan dar ghalamroe zibayi harekat kard? Shayad an harekat haman zibayi bashad, haman parvaz.shayad, zibayi asemani bashad baraye parvaz. Vaghti ke mikhaham in aseman ra dar vojoode kasi nik bengaram va kankash konam, zabanam basteye baste mishavad.be rasti chera sokhan goftan be in had? Gahi be in fekr mikonam ke ziade az had sokhan migooyam, engar zaban gahi chon vazneE mishavad bar badanam  ke tavanayie parvaz ra azam bazmisetanad. Gahi ba goosh kardan va negah az hamin do panjereye koochak, panjereye delam baz mishavad, sahne kamelan avaz mishavad. Khodam ra bar faraze gholleye azadi mibinam ke amadeam ke bazi bevazad va parvazam dahad. Badi ke be dobale zaifam ghodrate harekat dahad.in panjereye del chist ke zibai ra kheyli mahsoostar va amightar az an do panjereye koochak, neshanam midahad? An eradeye pooladi kojast ke jelaoye zibayi engarie an do panjere ra begirad? Kojast an ghazie  rastine zibayi? Kojast daricheye an panjereye del? Zendegi ba an omgh darad. Zendegi az an zibatarin ast. zibatarin, ari zibatarin. . .

Haghighat chist? Anche ke bashariat dar toole zendeganiash dar peye an boode ast?  Shayad doreye sokhan goftan az yek haghighate yeksan va vahed baraye hame, gozashte bashad. Shayad in dore doreye haghayeghe shakhsist. Shayad harche tarikh migozarad, be doreye har ensan yek payambar nazdiktar mishavim. Shayad digar tarikh be ma mikhahad begooyad ken a nazarieye ensan dar ejtema kamelan dorost ast van a ensan tanha. Shayad mikhahad begooyad ke jesm va  ta haddi zehn niaz be digaran darad vali zehn mitavanad panjereye didash ra vasitar konad va az rooya gholleye azadi va azadegi, be komake nasime molayeme erade, balhaye zibayash ra bogshayad va dar asemane asheghaneye zendegi be parvaz dar ayad. Shayad  in hes mara be in sahne ye ba shokoohe zendegi nazdiktar konad . . .

In hes  chist? Manbae an  kojast? Shayad sazgarie shegerfe an ba daroonam va ba an sahneye ba shokooh,  inghadr tahte tasiram gharar midahad. Shayad tajassomi bashad ke  az tamamie az donyaye khastani payami miavarad barayam. Shayad kholoose an ba pokhtegie darooniam ertebati khosoosi darad.shayad manaye eshgh bashad, shayad mafhoome zibayi bashad va shayad haman zendegiE bashad ke hamishe arezooyash ra daram. Amma koja mitavanam paydayash konam? Chegoone mitavanam dobare bebinamash? Tajassomash kojast? Dar chist va ya behtar ast begooyam dar kist?ari dar tost, ari dar to. To khod midani, midani va nemidanam dalile inhame doori chist? Chist be man begoo chist? Man dastanam baste ast va pahayam natavad dar taghire in masire door shavande va shayad ham dar nahayat nazdik shavande. Harche zaman migozarad in hessam be to khalestar mishavad va rahatar migardad az sood va bahre. Gooyia in toyi ey yare y yegane tarin yar ke zaman roo be sooyat darad va omr joz to nemitalabad, in toyi ke tavanayam mikoni be parvaz va in toyi ke zibayi ra be chashmanam mi avari va panjereye del ra bar man migoshayi. Ari in toyi to, in to hasti ke harekate makhfie in ensane natavan az faramoosh kardanat, aram aram, va basaboorie tamam ke engareye lezzat bordan az zarre zarreye masir ra be zehn miavarad, be sooyat ast. In toyi, to. . . va man in hessam ra  ba manahayi chon eshgh  va doost dashtan nakhaham azmood, hargez, hargez, hargez . . . . . . . . . . . . .

 

 

 

 

 

 

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